Accomplishments

Hey Guys!

Today was a major accomplishment for me.I ran my very first race. I didn’t have any particular time goal, just to cross the finish line with dignity( that would be running,no tears,no collapsing when I cross the line). I did manage to meet that goal, although in this picture it looks like I am having a horrible time:

Don’t I just look fabulous(hah.)I did however, in full honesty, cry a little when I was done,(while wiping sweat on the boyfriend’s chest) I was upset at how awful my time was, I was upset that I was right in line with that cute little girl behind me, I was upset that I had to walk a few times, I felt inadequate. Stephen had to remind me that my goal was to finish, and that this was my very first race. I can’t be perfect the first time. It’s a learning experience and I did well.

I seem to have a terrible time savoring victories. I always have to point out the things I cannot do well, or won’t do well enough. It is so frustrating, because I know intellectually that I have done something well, and that I can accept it and congratulate myself. But, for some reason, I can’t make myself believe it.

For example, Body Image. I have lost weight, I have lost a good amount of weight.(comment for actual numbers). However, I still look in the mirror some days and just want to cry. I have to re-center my thoughts and turn them positive. You know what? That is the hardest thing I have ever attempted.

Alright, moving on to the actual race recap:) The weather looked like this:

It was that gorgeous in real life. It was about 60 degrees, super sunny, with a nice light breeze. OHMYGOODNESS.

Stephen got some weird pictures of us:

(coming out of the port-a-potties)this is before the race.

saying “can I please just put the stupid bib on before you take the picture?” :D

OK Cheese! Bestie ‘Manda is not showing her bib.

After the race: look how red our faces are! The boy is Kyle Browne ( he is on our cross country team).

Last finish line picture of me, and here is one of Bestie ‘Manda:

So, there you have it, my recap of the 2011 Cabin Fever walk/run.  ( with some two-cents..sense? because this is my blog after all, so you will be burdened with my opinions)

Have a great night!